I have made a decision..it was pretty easy after I weighed the pros and cons. After I contemplated the why behind the things I do and say I realized that I have to be true to who I am and finish those things that I have chosen to start. For me F.G.I. is more than a blog, it's a diary, a soapbox and a jukebox all in one and I'm not ready to let that go, not yet.
So, I'm going to give it another go. No promises and no pretense. No schedules and no deadlines..I'm just going to do what I love and that will have to be enough...
**thanks for all the texts and tweets of encouragement today..hopefully you will stick along for the ride--love you much**
Oh and the drum pic was just too funny, it's how I picture a good, quality, dramatic drum roll to be! #Dontjudgeme
What would my life be if it did not all start with a song..everything I am is wrapped in a lyric, laid over a melody and sung through the veins of my heart...
Soooooooo I got an email today from "Godaddy" saying that it was time to renew my domain name and I could not believe that it had already been a year. So much has happened over the last 365 days that I almost can't believe that it is all real. Even writing this post seems odd since I have not done it in a while and I am just not sure what I want to do..
Writing for me has always been an escape, a way to bleed and still yet live to see another day. Over the last few months, even though I have been inspired, I have chosen to hold a lot of those things in for multiple reasons. And right now as I ponder my annual renewal, I am trying to decide how valid those reasons really are.
So I have decided to sleep on it, to ponder what "Fly Girl Interrupted" really means to me and what commitment or sacrifice I am willing to make. This decision is not about followers or subscribers - I mean, I only have 8 - they cannot care that much! It is not about advertising or trying to gain popularity in any way. What I am asking myself while trying to make this decision is do I still want to be heard. Do I still feel as if I have valuable things on the inside of me that I care enough about to put in a blog.
Whether it be funny or sad, fashion or foe. Whether it is about me or about the first man on the moon I do not want to continue with a product that I am not dedicated or committed too, nor do I want to give up something that I love because I am lazy and a quitter.
So tonight I will make a decision, I feel like I am deciding whether or not to break up with the love of my life or not and the crazy thing is--at this point I have no idea what I am going to do..
So like all my other super reflective blogs of the past, I am left at a crossroad with nothing but song and my keyboard to keep me company..
Whatever I decide, I will not leave the 8 people who have blessed me with there time hanging -- at some point tomorrow you will know where we stand..Until then sleep well (or good morning) and thanks for the love - fly is not a solo act, it is a family affair!!!
***Now off to think it all through.... I don't really want to stay, I don't really want to go, what I really want to know is can we get it together***
