What would my life be if it did not all start with a song..everything I am is wrapped in a lyric, laid over a melody and sung through the veins of my heart...
Soooooooo I got an email today from "Godaddy" saying that it was time to renew my domain name and I could not believe that it had already been a year. So much has happened over the last 365 days that I almost can't believe that it is all real. Even writing this post seems odd since I have not done it in a while and I am just not sure what I want to do..
Writing for me has always been an escape, a way to bleed and still yet live to see another day. Over the last few months, even though I have been inspired, I have chosen to hold a lot of those things in for multiple reasons. And right now as I ponder my annual renewal, I am trying to decide how valid those reasons really are.
So I have decided to sleep on it, to ponder what "Fly Girl Interrupted" really means to me and what commitment or sacrifice I am willing to make. This decision is not about followers or subscribers - I mean, I only have 8 - they cannot care that much! It is not about advertising or trying to gain popularity in any way. What I am asking myself while trying to make this decision is do I still want to be heard. Do I still feel as if I have valuable things on the inside of me that I care enough about to put in a blog.
Whether it be funny or sad, fashion or foe. Whether it is about me or about the first man on the moon I do not want to continue with a product that I am not dedicated or committed too, nor do I want to give up something that I love because I am lazy and a quitter.
So tonight I will make a decision, I feel like I am deciding whether or not to break up with the love of my life or not and the crazy thing is--at this point I have no idea what I am going to do..
So like all my other super reflective blogs of the past, I am left at a crossroad with nothing but song and my keyboard to keep me company..
Whatever I decide, I will not leave the 8 people who have blessed me with there time hanging -- at some point tomorrow you will know where we stand..Until then sleep well (or good morning) and thanks for the love - fly is not a solo act, it is a family affair!!!
***Now off to think it all through.... I don't really want to stay, I don't really want to go, what I really want to know is can we get it together***
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
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As your biggest blog groupie, I'll seriously miss my fix. As your friend, I'll support whatever will make you the happiest. Think it thru but don't think to hard.
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