What Becomes of A Broken Heart...

I am not too sure, but the question has me in reflect mode and I have decided to write a letter...

(Musical Sidebar: Soooooo..there has been a song playing over and over again in my head lately and the title (not so much the lyrics) really got me thinking Click Here to find out what it is.....)
 
Back to the letter...
   

I remember when we were close, it seems that lately you are not the same. I don't blame you though, a lot has happened over the last year. There were bound to be some changes.  Sometimes things happen and before you know it so much time has passed and so many things have been left unsaid that there is no way to get back to where we were then, and that's okay.  I have accepted that.  But that can not be where it ends.  I take responsibility for the way things have been up to this point.  I saw when it began to spiral out of control and I did nothing about it.  I could see when you began to change.  I could sense when the burden became to much to bear and still I did nothing.  I saw when you needed release, I was there when all you needed was time to make sense of it all and I did not give you that.  I sit back now and try to make sense of why I could not be there to encourage you, to see you through it all and the only thing that I can come up with is that I didn't want to face it.  It seemed that the more I ignored the issues the further away they became.  If I didn't mention the pain, for a brief moment the pain disappeared. 

     I know there is no excuse for the way I treated you.  I was suppose to cover you, shelter you and protect you until you were stronger and I failed. Epically I failed. But I am ready now, I have taken a moment to contemplate where it all went wrong and I am ready.  I no longer wish to cover it up, I no longer desire to lock you away. I realize now that what people see externally is a direct reflection of you and I want you to be exhibited properly.  The question always is what becomes of a broken heart, and now I know the answer - nothing! Until I make peace with the pain and the past, it stays broken. So this letter is for you..I am glad to be connected to you again...To feel you beating in my chest...I still feel the ache but you are no longer broken...I have tried to ignore you, bury you and then hide behind you and none of it worked.  So today I follow you..I allow you back on my sleeve where you usually reside...Nobody said it would be easy, but a cold heartless life is not a life at all...So I suppose the song that has been in my head was right on cue..I am finding my way back to something...it's not a person, nor is it a place.  I am finding my way back to me, to my heart and I must say it sure feels good...

Fly is not about fakin' it 'til you make it...Be real, Be Encouraged and please Be Yourself...